I’ve had a couple of mini mommy meltdowns the past week or so relative to our almost 5 year old’s tests of my will. She’s just acting her age after all. I’m a person of reflection so luckily, I take intentional steps back quite often to suss out my situation. I’ve realized that of late, I’ve been tired and somewhat short-fused. As a result, when we’ve returned home from a long day that usually consists of meals, bath then next day prep the evening has amounted to meals, bath and let’s just all pass the hell out.
When I’m stressed, my family is stressed. This is not rocket science I suppose, but it’s easy to forget the direct impact that you have on the world when you’re always in high gear. It’s important to stop and smile at the person approaching you on the sidewalk. It’s important to allow the time to be thoroughly thoughtful. It’s important to be present. It’s important to listen.
As a working mom I have learned to let things go a bit, and to fight the fights worth fighting.
Toys on the floor? Not a huge deal. Picasso on the hallway closet door? Another lesson in what not to do. But this morning as I was working away on my laptop having morning coffee my little gal managed to scissor her strawberry locks, all right under my nose. Was my head up my arse? Immediately following we battled over wardrobe — not the choice of clothes mind you, just the act of actually getting dressed in order to get out of the house on time. What the heck! I know very well that if we get our clothes out the night before that the morning runs much smoother, because I’m not stressed, and my family isn’t stressed as a result. For some reason this small little idea has gotten away from us the past 2 weeks. In order to be successful at this balance we have to be 2 steps ahead of every turn. EASY PEASY? Well sometimes it is, just not lately for me.
Hold a moment. I’m opening a bottle of Cathedral Ridge Pinot.
So this is the struggle isn’t it. Finding balance when we’re too tired to look. Stopping to get our bearings so we can be good for ourselves and for those around us. I was watching an autobiography of Jane Fonda the other night and she bestowed several pearls of wisdom as lessons from her life. Her meditation: “We’re not meant to be perfect, we’re meant to be whole.” So let’s give ourselves a break, or a “hallpass” to get to yoga. I’m really liking it folks.
I kept dinner super simple tonight. I am a lover of the Caesar Salad. I have many variations of the “classic” dressing but I tried a new recipe from Food & Wine this time. It was pretty tasty and light.
Dinner was prepared in 15 minutes, gotta love that!
Classic Caesar with Avocado
(for the croutons)
½ lb artisan 7 grain bread cut into cubes (or whatever you have on hand)
2 tbsp olive oil
Preheat the oven to 375 degrees. Toss the bread cubes with 2 tbsp olive oil. Season lightly with salt. Bake for 12-15 minutes.
(for the salad)
1 large egg yolk
4 oil packed anchovy fillets
2 garlic cloves, chopped
2 tbsp red wine vinegar
2 tbsp fresh lemon juice
1/8 tsp cayenne pepper
½ c olive oil
1 ½ lbs romaine lettuce, torn or chopped
½ c grated parmesan cheese
1 avocado, diced (my addition to the recipe)
In a bender, put the egg yolk, anchovies, garlic, vinegar, lemon juice and cayenne and puree. With the machine on, slowly stream in the olive oil until emulsified. Toss the romaine with the dressing, cheese and croutons. Top with Avocado and garnish with lemon.
Have a great day!